AllisonLuna

There was nothing else to do; I had decided to give up on life.  Nothing made sense, no matter how cliché it sounds.  It's truly terrifying how empty one can feel.  'I'm worthless,' 'I'm just a burden,' 'I wish I had never been born' were constant thoughts. I was never a believer, and maybe that was the key to giving it a try. If you don't believe, you find out. I had nothing left to lose. What the shamans taught me was that, as a result of a trauma I experienced many years ago, the "fright" had stayed with me to the point that from that moment it was impossible to sleep, achieve short-term goals, and I felt in a constant state of depression. I went to a psychiatrist who referred me to a psychologist because, according to him, the trauma could be easily resolved with therapy and a few months of medication. At first, everything worked; I stopped taking the medication when they told me to and continued with therapy. However, after a few m...